I have a job

Friends,

I have a job. A real, grown-up person job. They're going to pay me a salary. They're even going to give me benefits.

I think I'll be doing work that uses my brain. But I'm not sure. And, to be honest, I don't care. It's honest and moral; I'll do it. Remember the sewing straight lines story? It not only prefaced the end of CL, but also the beginning of this. Because at the time I realized, I frankly don't care what I do or when I have to do it. I would not have applied for this job when I was in law school. Or for a few years after. It's not a dream job. But I don't care. It will allow me to fulfill my real dreams.

I'll be working for the federal government. I've been told not to share more than that so I definitely won't on the Internet. (It's not forbidden that I not tell, just advised.) If you really want to know, I can tell you a little more.  I do think I'll enjoy the work; I'm afraid it won't be as intellectually stimulating as I might like, but I could be surprised. I won't enjoy the schedule--at least for several months I'll be working second shift. I don't like night time. But I can do anything that I need to do. There are other things I'm pretty sure won't be my ideal, but I don't know that, just guessing.

But it is a job. I have been un- or under-employed for 3 1/2 years. I may or may not write more about that sometime. Suffice it to say that I will never be the same. And I'm still very affected by that; although I'm going through all the motions to move forward, I can't really believe that I will have a job. I keep thinking that something is going to happen and it will fall through. I don't really know how to process the idea that I'll be working full-time. That I will have enough money that I feel some sense of security; how will that be?

Anyway, I'm grateful. I was very much guided by the Lord to find the job and be able to apply for it. I sense that it is exactly what the Lord wants to give me right now--and that is a wonderful feeling! Oh yes, and I'm moving to northern Vermont. I'm excited for that, though of course there is sadness associated with leaving many dear friends. But such is life, at least my life. And I am grateful to be close enough to see them when I want. Hopefully some will come visit--Vermont is gorgeous and fun in the summer time. Anyway, I will be moving in a couple of weeks and starting my job a few days after that. Big changes, and all the stress and excitement that come with it, abounding.

Today I flew to Georgia and had several hours to just think. It was a beautiful time to process some of the lessons the Lord has taught me over the past 4 years. They've been harder years than I could really explain, but I'm grateful for the lessons (and I was, even as it was happening--which I recognize as a blessing). I have been very aware the whole time that God was very aware of me, was with me, was taking care of me. When I was sure of nothing else--nothing else, at times--I was always sure of that. And I'm still sure. He has been on my right hand and on my left; Hi angels (earthly and heavenly) have literally been with me. I love my Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ.

Hopefully I'll take time to document some of the new things. But then again, you might just have to come visit and see.  Anyway, that's my news.